I've got something I would like to share

Two years ago, I had a severe pain on my left ankle and right knee. It usually happens when I did excessive long-distant running or training, that the pain will occur. So it was shocking and terrifying that the pain came when all I did was walking and not running or whatever, and at that moment I wasn't active in sports, just basketball and light jogging couple of times a week.

The pain got so severe that my sister had to take me to the Chinese doctor to go for a check up. When the doctor was checking my ankle, he asked me if I ever join Taekwondo because my shin was in bad shape(not literally) and he said that the injury that happens on the shin are usually caused by excessive kicking. Nevermind about that. So, he found out that my knees are weak, and my left ankle, that caused me so much pain, was because of my old injuries. I sprained my ankle when I was playing basketball, but most of the time I just sprained my ankle while I was walking.

What scared me the most at that time was that when he was examining my leg, he frowned his face, and 'tsk tsk tsk' all the way. It wasn't long after he suddenly told me, " Your legs are SPOIL, you cannot do sports anymore." I was like, HUH?! He even said I couldn't climb hills, or excessive running and all.. But I love doing all those ):

Since then, my family has been trying to limit me not to be so excessive about sports, running, whatever that can hurt my leg. But that made me even more determined, determined to prove that Chinese doctor wrong. And guess what? I did so many more sports and workout much intended compared to 2 years before. I climb Broga Hill. Yeah, it's not much, but someday by next year, I am determine to be on the peak of Mount Kinabalu.

I never gave up on what I love, and I prove the doctor wrong. Now I know what I'm capable of, and that my body can only be as strong as I tell myself how strong it is.

I don't workout hard enough

This is what I usually tell myself almost everyday. When I saw myself making progress physically, i couldn't help but to want to see more, to make more obvious progress, and then i wonder, "If i push myself every single day, maybe i'll reach my goal sooner!". So i made myself workout everyday, Monday-Wednesday-Friday I'll do HIIT, Tuesday-Thursday-Saturday I'll run and normal lifting. Sunday I'll go to the gym at my friend's place and do a full body workout. All because I've started working and started to feel that I'm not so physically active as before.

And I was wrong.

It's not until today, that I'm feeling all worn out, slight ache all over my body, fatigueness and basically, sore. What depressed me most isn't the pain, but instead i wasn't making any progress in my results. It then resulted into irritation and minor depression. (i know, i know, i'm dramatic i guess) Initially (and probably in denial), I blamed my PMS that caused all those negativity. I gave myself excuse. How bitch am I, and I thought i was right. 

Then this morning staring on my screen at this desk in this office in this company, I started to surf around, Google around and I came across to this.

"Overtraining syndrome frequently occurs in athletes who are training for competition or a specific event and train beyond the body's ability to recover. Athletes often exercise longer and harder so they can improve. But without adequate rest and recovery, these training regimens can backfire, and actually decrease performance."

http://sportsmedicine.about.com/cs/overtraining/a/aa062499a.htm

It actually decrease performance of being physically active. So not only I am overworking my body, I'm actually sabotaging it?

And when I continue reading it, here it says;

Common Warning Signs and Symptoms of Overtraining Syndrome

• Washed-out feeling, tired, drained, lack of energy
• Mild leg soreness, general aches and pains
• Pain in muscles and joints
• Sudden drop in performance
• Insomnia
• Headaches
• Decreased immunity (increased number of colds, and sore throats)
• Decrease in training capacity / intensity
• Moodiness and irritability
• Depression
• Loss of enthusiasm for the sport
• Decreased appetite
• Increased incidence of injuries.
• A compulsive need to exercise

So, I guess if there was a box beside the list of signs and symptomes, i could've ticked almost everything.

(READ MORE TO KNOW ABOUT OVERTRAINING SIGNS, SYMPTOMES AND WAYS TO OVERCOME IT)

Hmm.. so MAYBE i was a little overboard with working out. Maybe mom was right, I should take things down a notch. But I'm still learning, nevertheless. Now that I know that my body can only take so much, it's logical for me to have one or maybe two rest days..

So, the lesson learnt today was,

NOT TO OVERWORK YOUR BODY, your body can only handle so much.

IT'S OKAY TO REST but that doesn't give you the reason to eat shit.

Continue with eating healthy, loving yourself, never deprive yourself from anything. As the infamous saying, YOLO, make sure you make full use of your life, because you'll never know when's too late.

Treat your body right. And here's a bible verse of the day.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20 -"Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body."

Energized

How do I start? Hmmm.. so the above is the workout routine that I created during work when I had nothing to do (in fact, i had no task today, i just went around helping and being nosey around my colleagues).

Today was HIIT day!

So, what's written on the sticky notes are;

1. HIIT - Running
2. Walking lunges 4 X 10
3. Push ups -10 - 8 - 5 - 3
4. HIIT - Mountain climbers
5. Weighted squats 4 X 15
6. Donkey side and back kick
7. Shoulder press & shoulder lift thingy (i don't know what's it called but someday i'll show it) 3 X 12 each
8. (I didn't know what is it called too so I drew it) Your shoulder lie on the exercise ball, and your knee 90 degrees making your body parallel to the ground. Make your hips free and hold a weight (optional) on your hips.Slowly bend your hips down and push back up with slow breathing. 4 X 15
9. (abs circuit) =

•  mountain climbers X 25 each side
•  bicycle crunches X 20 each side
•  crunches X 20 
•  plank X 1minute

10. squat with single shoulder press 3 X 15

That was my workout for the day. I couldn't finish number 9 as I did only one set, but it was a killer workout. I never knew I could do even half of it. Though I couldn't finish the overall workout, OVERALL I knew I've achieved something. I have gained confidence in myself.

Last night I ran 5.7km, it wasn't very satisfying as my goal was to break the 6km record, but then I used to died at 5km itself. It was a record broken, nevertheless. And i also realized that my stamina has increased by doing HIIT. It was awesome. 

Always be better than you were yesterday, and keep pushing!

So, this is it for the short update. 

Fit and Strong and Healthy = HAPPY!!

Undeserving

Probably the last thing that I could have thought of is that I deserve someone better in my life. I've never been so unworthy about anything until this point in my life. People whom treated me so well, who cherishes me and appreciates me, aren't the ones that I appreciate.. I'm always slaves for people who treats me like a used toy and rubbish, but I just wouldn't care, because one, I want to be loved by someone whom I love. Two, I'm just plain selfish. At this point now, I don't deserve anyone better, that is why I am torturing myself. Torturing myself thinking that if I treated myself low, having fun, then it would be my level of 'deserving' area. The last thing I want for now is a commitment in something far greater than just texting and caring.. Those are out of my league, I will never have that. That is why, now I guess I'm just a puppet, waiting for someone to just hold the strings, and play me away. Because if I deserve anything, that's what I deserved.

Hello, office.

So, as I am typing down what I am typing right now(LOL), I am feeling oh so very unproductive right now... Well, at least unproductive physically. I've started my internship and currently on my 4th day right now and if anyone in the office catches me actually blogging, I guess I'm sort of screwed or something. Everyone here is so..... Corporate. Oh well, maybe I haven't been exposed to corporate world before that's why.

Oh yeah! I'm currently interning in a corporate company, and yes, being a Creative and Arts student, why am I in corporate? Well, coz I can't drive, and my sister works here. So that explains.

I've been feeling very afraid and demotivated by the culture in office, or as I call it, FIT GIRL'S HELLL. All everyone does is just sit, reply emails, sit, data entry, sit, sit, sit and more sit. It's only the 4th day and I'm already struggling not to stab myself with a pen, what more for another 3 freaking months?! ps: it's 8-6 kinda job ):

Now, my main concern is how to NOT get fat and less fit while working in the office. The culture here is just, well, everyone sits, and if colleagues happens to come back from vacation, SINFUL TREATS WILL BE DISTRIBUTED, then you fat die. How can I survive??

But everyday I kept telling myself, "Marissa, don't be pessimistic. You can do this! It's not over! Your goal is still there, the journey's merely just lengthen.". Then I remembered the bible verse, Phil 4:13 "I can do all thing through Him who gives me strength" , and I feel so much relief. I know I can do this! This might be just me, STILL motivating myself, but at least for now I know that it's not impossible because I know it's possible because in Him i can do this, and because He believe i can. Adding some time management and sacrifices, then it'll be perfect.

Be loyal to yourself.

So with me motivating myself every single second while I'm working, I get to plan more workouts and my meals when I get home also meals to prepare for the next day.

What I plan to do every working day:

• change and RUN
• lift

That's all, simple as that. I can do this. YESSS!!

Healthy & Happy

I MISSED A WORKOUT!

Have you ever felt like you missed a workout, and you feel all guilty about it? Because I am now. I was too comfortable being in my bed that I didn't go for my usual morning run.

Buttttttttt, what I can say is that, we all need a REST DAY. I know that it might only sound like I want to comfort myself,but it is true! I deserve a REST. We all do.

Feeling guilty is normal, we are all human, aren't we. But it's not necessary either. Many times I have come to a point of minor depression(I know it's weird) because I thought I don't workout enough, and that rest is not needed. And then I realized that at some point, even our body needs rest. A body cannot function well if it is overworked.

There is a familiar quote for those fitness freak out there, "Results comes from 30% workout and 70% diet" and I can say, yeah, it is 100% true! No point working out like a machine and eat rubbish every single day.. You'll still be filling your body with things that ruin your body.

Treat you body right! If you start treating it right, results will come. And definitely missing one or two workout will not worsen anything. If there's anything that will come out of missing few workouts, it is good! Let your body rest, let your muscle repair.

Moderation is the key. LOVE YOUR BODY.